"No Longer"

2-25-03

I'm so sick of your munipulations

Too tired and fatigued to take this anymore

My life's turned black enough now

Added aggresion only leads to more pain

You say I'm hurting you and being selfish

That I no longer care of my actions

You may not know me that well then

You'd rather end this as a war

Cannot take this pain anymore

Stealing the energy I store

Want to give up and plunge deep

And take my final sleep

You've hurt me more than known

I choose to hide the pain I've not shown

Mistaken self esteem for selfishness

I've given up on everything now

Because if you want to ruin it

I no longer have te strength to match

I close my eyes in surrender

Knowing full well of what I may endure

My hear sinks and weeps

I still cannot make myself cry

I've been so strong for so long

This break from trying may kill me

I can no longer fight my life

Failure and misery are inevitable

I've never been as pure as now

I'll take whatever pain I can allow

See my eyes have closed

Too tired to lift anymore

Can't believe I've become weak

But all have their limit

I'll never regret a single moment

I'll never feel shame for what I've said

Fate has it's way of telling one

Have ignored it for far too long

Hopelessly lying on the floor as I write this

No longer hiding, but no longer trying

I'll take what is coming to me

I can only strongly say "never again"