"Guilty"

(June 7th, 2003)

You come over to visit me

Find me sitting on the floor

Sad music playing

I have so much shame 

I can't even look up at you

Your heart sinks knowing I'm bad

My guilt rises from

Knowing I've more pain and worry

Than I have already

I can't move, feeling bad

Knowing I make things harder

For people than they are already

So, if you visit, prepare for the worst

As I am often in an ugly state

Nothing in life is always happy

Just hope I don't feel guilty

Although I already do

Whine too much already

The sun comes up again

Another insomniac night

Knowing it should be a new day

But these things never change

And it never goes away

I'm sorry I'm not the person you hoped for.